How surrounding matters ?

In School days or in college life I supposed to be a most talented, determent, a bit confident among all my friends in my circle. But Uni life is totally different & quite difficult from my past, never achieved something enormous. I am the eldest one in my home my father is an ordinary property dealer so from home i didn't received any useful suggestion for my professional education. I still remember my tuition teacher Sir Azhar told me before joining Sir Syed Uni, "Ahsan if you get fail in any of subject this would not cost in your academic career". Yes this is what exactly he advised me before joining. Well, with this suggestion &  adverse approach I stepped in for higher education & in first semester the result was on spot I had failed in 1st semester & you know what ? i literally have no issues or any shame on my result cause i had learned this from my teacher.

Thanks to my both sincere and honorable friends Wajahat & Sharoze. They both from very respected & educated families so they know the importance of result & it's consequences. They jolted me and realized me towards the right track finally I started studying and put my full effort to cross the lines & I passed my all semester without any hurdle & In final semester i scored 3.0 GP with the blessings of ALLAH.

At the start i wrote "I supposed to be a most talented, determent, a bit confident" I  disown this now I don't agree with this statement & the reason is at that moment my surroundings was not up to the mark we all were average no one has that much capable, efficient or updated. So among the mediocre level students I started taking  myself  as a bit genius or intelligent. Yeah I am in credulousness.
                                                                 

My First Ever Article

I am going to write my first ever blog Huuu! why i am starting blog writing is to improve my English skills because the target i set for my future will need this proficiency from me.

I am very confused personality i never seen anyone like me i am 26 and i don't know what to do with my future. I have a bachelor's degree in computer science and have a work experience in Digital Marketing haha the first contradict of my life. I am here because lack of knowledge & Planning. When i see around me people has vision, ambition and goals and they all are on their respective paths to achieve their targets.  I ask everyone for my job i be like please do something for my job, please forward my CV to HR,  Have you forwarded my cv ? these are my basic regular questions to friends & relative but nothing good happen to me. There is a trend set in Pakistan for Job you have to required someone source to get a good job in a finest company and people gets job like this. So i follow this route too.

I am very talented, Hard working, Gem of a person, Kind Heart these are some usual & normal compliments for me. I heard from every other person  & i feel pissed off  because i am not getting such rewards so please don't say this to me, no I'm not that good i don't deserve these admiration. Because i have not set any goal for me i am spending my life nowhere. This is true a man without a goal is like a ship without a rudder.